If all that's going on in your scenes is what's going on in your scenes, think about it a long time.
A good sign that an army has been around too long is that it starts getting top-heavy with officers.
All I can guarantee you is that as long as you are searching for happiness, you will remain unhappy.
There is no disguise which can hide love for long where it exists, or simulate it where it does not.
You want to make sure that your purpose is something people can benefit from long after you're gone.